Archive for December, 2006

Creating Your Life

Monday, December 11th, 2006

We are all the creators of our own life.  Nothing happens by chance.  Everything that has happened to us is a result of conscious or subconscious thoughts.  We create our own lives by perpetuating thoughts of wealth, health, greed, selfishness, selflessness, and many others.  We only experience things because we believe they are possible.  So if we have this sort of power, how do we unleash it to the fullest extent to create a life that fills us with joy and passion?  How can we get out of a scarcity mindset when we’re certain we won’t have enough money to pay this month’s mortgage payment?  How do you create the life you want without sabotaging yourself with limiting beliefs?

One useful tool, as discussed in the blog entry, Gratitude, states that being thankful for what you already have incorporates a definite higher vibrational intention in your mind.  If you spend your time worrying about what you don’t have, you’ll start a string of negative thoughts that will eventually manifest in your reality.  If you start to bethankful for your life, your family, what material possessions you do have, then you will start to realize that acknowledging what you already have and putting a positive emotion on that will allow you to attain more of what you want.  Here’s the logic behind this:  If you show you appreciate a gift from someone, it brings them joy, doesn’t it?  It will make them feel more inclined to do this again, correct?  He/she knows that if he/she gets you a gift, then you will appreciate it.  I believe the universe works the same way.  So, if you appreciate what the universe has already handed to you,then you open yourself up for new gifts.

I remember reading a book three or four years ago that, at the time, completely dissipated my residual cancer effects.  It was called Creating Power.  and it really showed me the power of positive thought, but I had already suspected this.  But one thing the book introduced to me was thanking the universe for something you want, even if you haven’t received it yet.  Show gratitude for the things you have not yet gotten, and it sort of guilt-trips the universe into giving it to you.

Affirmations are another way to attract the things you want into your life, but they are time-consuming and repetitive, so if you don’t have that sort of time, I’d suggest just using visualization of what you want whnever you are doing nothing.  Think clearly about what you want and imagine that you already have this.  Then put out the intention to have what you just visualized and you will be on your way to receiving it.  It may take five minutes a day, but don’t sabotage yourself by thinking the opposite the rest of the day.  If you want financial abundance in your life, don’t spend five minutes concentrating on that and the rest of your time concentrating on how you never have enough money.  Your dominant thoughts will manifest.

This is why it is important to not focus on what you don’t have.  Focusing on what you don’t have will create more of not having.  Focusing on what you do have and the intention to expand what you do have, while being thankful for what you have and the opportunity to expand is what will allow you to create more.   But don’t deny what you are already getting.  Don’t do affirmations like, “I am a millionaire,” if you are not a millionaire, because doing that lowers your consciousness.  Say something like, “Every moment I am allowing one million dollars to come to me, as I am thankful for it.”  Something along those lines.  It’s a very intersting process as I have witnesses some truly bizarre ways for money to come into my life.  I may go over these in a future post.

If you got everything you wanted, what would you do with it?  Would you end up wanting more and more and more, until you completely got out of whack with yourself?  Or would you remain thankful and be content with what you’re already getting?  Here’s what I have noticed:  It is a long process to get what you want completely, sometimes lasting an entire lifetime.  You may say it takes too long sometimes, but how boring would life be if the second you thought about something, it came to you?  And once you had everything, then what?  So, what I am saying is that even though it may take longer than you want to get what you want, allow it to come to you and be patient, even if nothing happens, because eventually, you’ll get what you deserve.  The key is knowing it is on its way, believing that you will attain the things you desire.

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So Far, So Good

Friday, December 8th, 2006

Well, I am happy to say I just checked my blog stats and I’m up over 3300 visitors total.  I am very impressed with the outreach I’ve created so far, but I believe it’s time to up the ante just a bit.  My main goal in all of this writing about whatever comes to mind is simply to connect with people who I otherwise would never get a chance to connect with.  This blog started out as a comedy-centered report, but it eventually evolved into something I cannot even explain right now, but I am enjoying this progression.

I am writing this post to sincerely thank all of you for reading and commenting on what I’ve written.  I enjoy writing, so getting feedback is important so I can find blind spots I’m overlooking and also become a better writer, philosopher, and thinker.  But I do want to reach a larger audience.  I just have to find a way to do it successfully.  I registered a domain name and I need to learn how to upload the wordpress software onto it and then I will start blogging from there as well.  It would be nice to have that kind of control, wouldn’t it?  I’m not saying WordPress is overly restrictive, just that I would enjoy a larger amount of freedom on my own domain site.

I am pleased and thankful for how this blogging activity has gone so far, and I am most definitely going to keep it up.  I am helping others (I hope) as well as helping myself go through realizations that sometimes warp my whole perception of reality, but that’s all right.  We’re all here to find meaning and every day I write about this topic, I come closer and closer to finding this meaning.  I am reading more as well.  Television has become almost non-existent in my life, and reading/writing has filled that void of watching back-to-back-to-back episodes of Law and Order: SVU/CI, or whatever’s on Court TV.   I have been working on my speaking skills, not to mention the fact that my comedy is going along well, even though I do not tend to it quite as often as I should.

I find I am in a very good place right now, on the cusp of inner peace and an almost complete dissipation of fear.  I’ve been through hell and back in the last four to five years and I am no longer going to let fear hold me back.  I am going to allow myself to go “all out,” do whatever it is I have to do in order to manifest my desires.  I want to make a difference, I really do.  I want to inspire people, show them the positive side of life.  Nothing else fulfills me the way that does.  It’s my “drug” of choice.

I notice many times that I could be doing more with this blog, posting pictures and links or whatever, but I find this may interfere with my writing goals, but maybe it won’t.  I find it’s pretty time-consuming to look up a variety of links or pictures, upload them onto the website, and then place it in an opportune place.  But maybe I should do that.  I could start a network of links all over the place.  I’ll have to weigh the pros and cons.

I believe the best thing I can do for this site is start linking articles together.  This will be a very good way to keep people reading longer and get more help.  I’ve just got to stay on my ass and do it, instead of reading or wasting time reading blogs I’ve already read a hundred times.  Well, it’s been good laying out the framework for the future.  Stay tuned for some interesting changes

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Rabid Senior Citizens

Thursday, December 7th, 2006

Rabid senior citizens. Everywhere.. This is what yesterday at my job was like. I work at a supermarket in Surfside Beach, SC and yesterday was what we call Senior Bonus Day, where all senior citizens with a Senior Bonus Card get five percent off of their total grocery purchase. I arrived at my job around two in the afternoon to see a store swamped with these elderly people, all there for one thing, to save a little bit of money while shopping for what they need.

I’m not saying it is a bad thing for them to want to save money, but it’s the hell-bent, cutthroat way in which some of them do it that astounds me. I’d swear some of them were stocking up for a possible nuclear holocaust. The average bill yesterday had to be somewhere in the $175-$200 range, not to mention the discount. I guess that’s the reward you get for not dying after at least sixty years, five percent off your total grocery purchase.

Supposedly, if you’re over 85 years old, you also get an additional one percent off, even on non-Wednesdays. I’m not sure if that’s a valid incentive to live to that age, but I can see the merit behind it, to some extent. WE reward those who have paid numerous taxes over the years. I believe that’s what it’s all about. These people most likely single-handedly supported seven or eight welfare cases each in their lifetime, individually of course. But this sort of lifestyle for the elderly kind of interests me to a reasonable extent.

A life filled with golfing, senior discounts, early bird specials, and bingo on Friday nights sounds like a very leisurely life. But at the same time it’s kind of sad because these people are simply waiting for death to come and get them. They have little time on this earth, and they choose to spend it saving as much money of restaurant meals and grocery bills as possible. It’s almost like they center their whole lives around saving money, as if they are trying to preserve a legacy for themselves. Some people do this to give a bit of their money to their families when they die, and that’s noble of them. But then there are the other seniors who are just cheap. They’ll cut out every cost at all costs. They’ll fight over ten cents. Those are the ones I call rabid senior citizens.

I won’t say anything more bad about the seniors because the majority of them are very good people. There is a group of rather bitter ones, but those are the minority. Most of them are very loving people and are full of great wisdom. They’ve passed a point in their lives where they know what life is all about. And they feel truly grateful to have lived this long. Many of them always have something interesting to say and their spirit is often very soothing. And they love to share bits of wisdom with you.

I feel like it is very pertinent to take some bits and pieces of information from these people because they’ve lived a full life and they know about all sorts of things that you may have no idea about. They’ve been through some of your life’s problems and could often give you great advice on how to overcome them. They can serve as great mentors and help you reach clarity as to finding out what is really important to you. Most of them are filled with positive energy, and I often pick up on it.

Ironically, last night before I went to bed, my mother was watching a TV show about how many people will ignore elderly abuse and she called me over to watch it. There was this actor, playing a 90-year old man in a wheelchair and another actor physically and verbally abusing him in public and they videotaped all the people just walking by as this man was slapping the elderly man in the head, throwing his water all over the floor, saying, “You want water? Too bad, it’s all gone,” as well as saying, “You’re stupid, you’re worthless.” And it was really sad to see that many elderly people are abused and hardly anyone does anything about it. I think out of 100 people, only 25 did anything to help the elderly man. So sad, yet so true. These are the fathers of our country right now, so I encourage you to treat the elderly with respect. They’re too knowledgeable and kind to allow these sort of things to happen to them. They don’t deserve this kind of treatment, so please, if you see any kind of elderly abuse, please step in and say something because it’s not fair to people who simply refuse to die. I’ll close with a quote from the book, Tuesdays with Morrie:

“The Red Sox were in town, but I didn’t care, it was Tuesday, and I went to go visit Morrie. He couldn’t go to the bathroom anymore, but in indomitable spirit…”

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Gratitude

Tuesday, December 5th, 2006

I figured the holidays was a poignant time to bring up being grateful for what you already have. Be thankful for everything you have, your mind, your health (hopefully), your sense of being, your family, your friends, your favorite TV show, or whatever makes you happy or fulfilled. I find it rather odd how many people (I’ve observed this personally) go on and on about how their life sucks, but from another person’s perspective, it would be an amazing life, filled with rich experiences. Maybe it’s the whole concept of “beauty is in the eye of the beholder.” But I find many people would rather complain about the things in their life that are going bad than give praise for everything in their life that is wonderful.

I realize that most people only do this exercise once a year, at Thanksgiving, and that’s sad because you can do it every day if you wish. Just take a minute out of your day and look closely at everything you have. Don’t think about what you want, but look at what you have. Maybe it’s a house, a car, a sense of inner peace, I don’t know. Realize how lucky you are to be in the situation you are in. Understand that you do have something. Then ask yourself, “What if I didn’t have all of these things?” And you’ll inevitably see that what you have is very important.

I have had this newfound appreciation for life for the last five years, ever since my brain cancer, and I do realize that had I been around in a different time period, I would either be dead or on life support. A ventricle in my brain would have burst and most likely killed me. I thank God, the universe, and luck that I was born in such a wonderfully medically endowed time such that I was able to not only survive, but to almost full capacity. Sometimes I may get down that I’m not at my complete full capacity, but then I remember how lucky I am to be here now. But I need to be reminded of this almost every day or I start to go negative again.

I have a co-worker who also suffered from a brain tumor. I have had many extensive conversations with him and he is a real motivator. He cherishes every second of his life like it’s gold, always being happy, positive, and grateful. Most people are scared off by his niceness, but I have come to embrace it. It is rather funny sometimes how over-the-top he goes, but it just shows his unbridled enthusiasm for life. He told me the story of one of his eight brain surgeries, where the doctor came out and said it was sincerely a “miracle” he survived. I’ll spare you the details because it gets rather long, but let’s just say the surgery had more than a 50% chance of killing him.

I guess the closer you get to death, the more you appreciate life. I remember him and his famous words, the ones he says to every customer that comes by, “It’s always a pleasure to help somebody else….always.” After awhile, it gets pretty redundant, but the message rings clear: he really does realize how lucky he is to be alive, and he’s awakened that in me as well, as I too remember how I felt when I initially overcame the cancer. “Having a life-threatening illness gives you a sort of enlightenment about life,” he tells me while we are waiting around for the next customer. And I agree with him whole-heartedly. He is an affirmation of my current beliefs.

Understand how lucky you are to be alive. How lucky you are to simply exist. Most times, people who haven’t been close to death cannot fathom what is means to be truly thankful for life, so I’ll put it this way: Cherish every second of your life because you never know when it is going to end.

Just take maybe a minute out of every day to say thank you. And once you’re grateful for what you already have, then you’re ready to start attracting new things into your life. But what I’ve found is that when you’re in a perpetual state of joy most of the time, you really don’t need anything else. Situations don’t bring you joy, but rather, you bring joy to the situations. I have found myself less attached to external success and more focused on internal success. As Eckart Tolle says, “If you get the inside right, the outside will fall into place.”

I’ve come to the point where I accept myself fully for who I am. I understand. I am an embodiment of myself and do what I feel is right for myself and the world. I no longer conform to others’ standards, as I do not feel they are right for me. I realize how lucky I am to be here and through that, I choose to use my life to fully and completely spread my message throughout the world. And for this I am very thankful.
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Intuition and Discovering Life’s Purpose

Monday, December 4th, 2006

Intuition is a tool everyone possesses but not everyone really uses it to it’s fullest extent. I believe it is something most people don’t usually trust very much, but it is something that can be very useful. It’s about trusting your intuition that is the key. Without trust, it will not work properly, just as a friend who you do not trust will not help you as much as someone who does trust you. Intuition is a guiding force, something that will get you on your life’s path. Something that will allow you to be at peace while passionately pursuing your purpose, whether or not you succeed by the “external world’s” standards.

Sure, you may think you know what you want in life. A house, a car, a jacuzzi, maybe a two-car garage, a wife/husband, a secure job that pays well, among other things, but it’s what inspires the being inside of you that should really be what you want in life. I am so tired of talking to people who are doing well financially, but absolutely hate their job, their living situation, and many other aspects of their life, but they remain silenced because they are making big money, but at what risk? Burnout, irritablility, exhaustion, hate for authority (I’m guilty of this one), and lack of motivation. Their only real motivation is not geting fired, and that will only make them work hard enough so they don’t get canned. But most people never question how they got to that state in the first place and almost verify that they cannot change this situation, either because of fear or lack of understanding of their true passion.

When I was in college, I had thought I wanted to be a Math teacher. I really did. I had no real experience to back me up, but I did enjoy math. So I go to college and I absolutely loathe the education courses deeply. They have no real staying power in my brain. I often zone out in these classes, imagining I’m on the beach, with a glass of water in a lounge chair, just relaxing to the point of sleepiness. Then, when the class was over, I would zone back in, sometimes a little late, to the point where I’d be the only person left sitting in the classroom, completely unaware of the lesson that took place. But I did not want to change my major or minor then and there because I don’t think I wanted to lose all the money and credits I had gotten, not to mention the loss of job security as a teacher has one of the better job retentions as the career is in high demand. To make a long story short, I ended up leaving that university because I could no longer take all of the pressures of such a limiting place.

The problems I had with this particular university was it did not allow me to figure out what I wanted to do, it simply made you choose something. And if that decision was wrong, you would have to change, but also spend the money on the time you wasted studying the subject(s) you did not find interesting, which I did not find to be fair. Not only was I wasting a good deal of my time, now I also wasted a great deal of money. But then I realized that it is definitely in the university’s best interest for you to stay there as long as possible because they will make more money that way. And I’m not saying that this is a bad thing for the university, but it is for the individual student. So I left and decided to take some time off to “find myself.” I realize that most of the world is high-stress and high-pressure, but I am not someone who works well under pressure, but rather someone who works well in deep relaxation, so I decided to take a couple of semesters off to really delve at what it is I should do for a living.

I started reading all this information about personal development, health, fitness, different philosophies, Zen in particular stood out, the state of the planet, cosmic intelligence, and so forth. My real passion at that time was to be a stand-up comedian. I had written many, many jokes and even performed maybe ten or fifteen times total to a pretty good reception. I enjoyed it very much, but after reading all of these different texts, I realized that being a stand-up comedian was really limiting. I was much smarter than that. I have a much more intelligent part of my brain, so I had to realize that stand-up comedy would be a part of my life, but not as big a part as I had previously thought. I came to accept this, grudgingly, but it has now become existent.

So, how did I realize what my passion was? Well, I started journaling, blogging, soul searching, deep thinking, for days at a time, understanding, questioning, revamping, and I eventually came to an overall philosophy for myself and became very passionate about developing new ideas for this passion and philosophy, although I could not see how this really measured up to some sort of career title, except freelance philosopher, which I thought was pretty hip. But it doesn’t pay the bills, at least I don’t believe it can, just thinking. So I needed to develop a medium through which I could help other people along this path, as well as allow myself to earn a decent income from it. When I say decent, I mean enough to pay my bills and maybe a little bit extra. So I thought….

I’m not really the most vocal person. I’ve been working on improving my vocal skills immensely, but they are still a work in progress, but my writing skills are pretty honed as I’ve done a bit of reading and a bunch of writing in the past year and a half or so. My intuition was letting me know, through this introspection and journaling that I really did enjoy the process of writing. I loved to write down ideas and potentially share them with others, regardless of the monetary value I could extract from it. Even though I am still a fan of stand-up comedy and I enjoy listening to it, and will also perform it numerous times in my future, I realize that it is not a final destination, and it will not fulfill me the way writing does. But I had thought of how I could perform standup comedy, not in the way I was doing it then, but in a completely different way, a philosophical kind of way, most likely for a smarter audience, not that I’m excluding people here, but it would be a very slow-paced methodical, Zen-like performance and it would be the only way I could thoroughly enjoy myself. It would probably start something like this. “I like to think outside the box. It wasn’t my idea, the box was getting too crowded.”

The next obvious progressional step away from stand-up comedy is public speaking, motivational speaking, and the like. I believe, once I hone my verbal skills and body language to the point where I can triage ruthlessly onstage without skipping a beat, I will most likely have to put this on hold, although my speaking has improved significantly in the past three months, where I am enunciating much more and also speaking clearly and slowly, as if I am slowing down significantly. And I like it. I used to mumble quite a bit and now it’s becoming less like this. But I feel in the very core of me, the very foundation from which I come, this is what I need to do. I need to get these ideas out there, as they will most likely influence lives. It is no longer a question of “want to,” but a statement of “need to.” I believe this is the difference between want and need. If I don’t do these things, these writing and speaking, I feel as if I will not have a reason to live. I feel that, in helping people come to terms with some of the realizations I have come to, that I am making the world a better place. At least that’s my intention.

And you don’t have to agree with me. Feel free to comment if you don’t like my line of thinking. It will give me a chance to evaluate my thinking and possibly grow from the experience. I welcome all feedback and I wish that you question everything, even my own writing. I am here to help you think, not to have you follow what I write blindly because that’s no better than following Christianity just because you were brought up with it. I’m not saying all people like that follow their faith blindly, but there are some who do, not really believing it, but just doing it because it’s easy to do so, rather than figure out their own belief system. So I ask you to read, think, interperet, and follow you core feeling, what it is you really believe, really want to do with your life. And maybe you don’t know. Maybe it will take time. Just write about it. Try and figure it out.

And it’s not a life-long goal, either. Maybe your passion will fade after a few years or decades. Then you’re free to move to something else. You’re in control. There is no one stopping you except yourself. So if you want to pursue one thing for ten years, and another for the net ten years, do so. Life is about experiences and the value we bring to them. Don’t become the guy who works at a job he hates just for the employee benefits and job security. Please, you at least owe it to yourself to do what you love. Peace, love, and happiness to all.

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