I’m just here to write for the fun of it. I figure I’ve already lost most of my audience, so it couldn’t hurt no matter what I say. Something happened to me with this blog and I just kind of gave up on it. I wanted so badly to become an A-list blogger and I was well on my way to doing so and then I started not feeling well and the content and frequency of posts went downhill. When I started this blog, I was on top of the world. I was progressing towards becoming my own person and being someone in the world. But lately health issues have been holding me back from turning this blog and my life into what I want it to be. I’ve had a rough six years and there were good times and bad, and I guess I just have to accept those years for what they were and try to move on from here. I’m trying to get back on the good side so hard and I feel I’m making some progress. Having a brain tumor is something that can take a lifetime to completely get over and I can only take it one day at a time.
The problems I had was I often pushed myself too hard while I wasn’t 100% and this led to me getting worse. I just wanted to get back to living a normal life, but my condition kept telling me I couldn’t. But I kept faking it. Pretending like everything was okay because I thought if I did that enough, it would come true. Well, it hasn’t yet. But I feel like I may have overturned some new leafs and can go towards that direction at my own pace, the pace that will not overwhelm me and land me back where I was before.
I’ve gotten angry quite a bit about my condition and felt hopeless at times. But I keep existing here for a reason, and I keep looking for an answer. People all have these struggles in their lives, but each one is unique. It’s not easy to admit to yourself or to others how bad the struggle is sometimes. But I find the more people that know about your struggles, the more support you’ll have in overcoming them.
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I’ve just come for a look at your site after some advice you posted in one of my threads on Steve Pavlina’s forums..
I agree that the more people know of your struggles, the more support you will gain.. so I just wanted to drop by with some positive energy for you!
Keep on going mate! You will get there…
Personally I find it easier to complete things when I know I dont “have” to do them… so just do what you feel like on a day to day basis! dont pressure yourself!
xx Shaks
Andrew,
You still have a few people out here, in the audience. Not that it matters, since you are doing something you love, right?
I get the feeling that, perhaps the cancer was really meant to steer you into a different direction. Not just a different direction, but a new destiny. It’s funny, how some things that are considered horrible, can wind up being so beneficial in the grand scheme of things.
So where do you go from here? Methinks you sum it up pretty well yourself, in the “beating-cancer” article, which I’ve linked to in the comment. Having an organization like this, a think tank so to speak, to examine some of the bigger questions of life…That would be nice.
But of course I am just a random stranger, passing by. And this is just a random intuitive feeling. Something else to try and steer you in a certain direction in life. So, you can take it for what you feel it is worth.
Whatever you choose, of course, I pray that you will be truly happy with your life, and the direction it has gone.
-Mark