It’s Been Awhile…

When I first started this blog/website way back in 2006, my intentions for it were for it to be some sort of online business.  Seven years later and I have not earned a red cent from this blog.  As a matter of fact, I haven’t really tried that hard, but that’s mostly due to my various medical conditions stemming initially from a brain tumor I had about 10 years ago.  I get bad eye strain from typing for too long, and writing 1000+ word blog entries just didn’t seem appealing at times, and I didn’t really have anything valuable to share, at least nothing original.  But then again, there are hardly any original ideas out there anymore.  Everyone is a collection of everyone else’s ideas and thoughts.  I’ve heard from someone that most people go through their entire lives without having an original thought.  Isn’t that pathetic?

For the past six months or so, on and off, I’ve been going through Steve Pavlina‘s archives.  I started way back in 2004, and now I’m somewhere in the late 2008 phase of his blog.  That man is a true legend in the blogosphere and in the personal development field.  For me, he’s the person who started me on the right path after I was expelled from college for doing things that I would describe as bullying and passive-aggressive behaviors.

Now I’ve got a job that pays decent enough, I’ve saved over $26,000 in the past 4 years, and I can genuinely say that I’m happy where I am in most aspects of my life.  Sure, I may work the graveyard shift, and I may not always feel my best, but I definitely feel my life is far more under control than it has ever been before.  I enjoy the one person I work with each night, and there have been many that I have worked with.  I’ve accepted my disabilities and my limitations, and people who know what I have been through consider me a miracle, an inspiration to others not to give up.

For those of you who do not know, I had a pineal gland malignant germinoma, which resulted in me going through a very traumatic brain surgery, where the surgeon actually separated the two halves of my brain in order to pull out a piece of my tumor to see what kind it was.  It was a 9-hour affair.  I’m just glad I was out for all of it.  They took the back of my skull off my head and went all the way into the center of my brain to pull out what I believe was a few pieces of my tumor.  I certainly wouldn’t recommend it if you don’t have to go through it.

After that ordeal, I had 30 days of radiation treatment, 15 days which were whole brain radiation, and the second 15 that were targeted radiation treatment to specifically melt the rest of my tumor.  I was 16 years old when I had the surgery, and 17 when I had my radiation.  It was one of the hardest challenges of my life, and it has affected me in oh so many ways, both positive and negative.  Sure, I might not have a college degree or a high-paying job, but I can say for anyone who is going through a similar experience that I never, ever gave up.

I am in no way perfect, but that’s not the point, now is it?  I’ve simply done the best I can with the cards I was dealt.  At least I have a supportive family who will stand behind me.  And I’ve got tons of interests in various things, including the nature of reality, reading (audiobooks mostly), writing from time to time, music, comedy, David Icke’s material, healthful eating, meditation (to the degree I can focus my mind), raising my level of consciousness, personal development, and others I can’t really think of right now.

Mama always said that God only gives people the things they can handle.  I guess God thought I could handle brain cancer.  I’ve only met one other person who has ever had a tumor in a similar part of the brain, and he had a far worse cancer than I did.  My type of cancer and its location were one in a million.  And I was born with it, and it slowly grew up until I was about 16, and that’s when it started pinching off a ventricle in my brain, causing headaches you can’t even imagine.  It’s been a long journey getting back to where I feel like I found a job I can do and have been doing for close to 4 years now.  As for making money from this blog, it’s not a pressing issue, although the extra income would be nice.  I’ll have to give that some consideration in the near future.

Peace out, world.

The Holographic Universe

The illusory nature of reality is sort of like a holographic television channel.  There is so much happening in the space that we are occupying that we cannot see, hear, or feel in any way, shape, or form.  We can only see less than 1% of all light on the spectrum of light.  Humans are basically blind when it comes to what they can see in relation to what is actually there.  Not only that, they are not seeing with their eyes.  We are seeing with our brains, which are interpreting vibration, which then manifests itself as the holographic universe.  But this holographic universe is one of many, therein lies the theory of parallel universes.  Most of these parallel universes have frequencies that are so far apart from ones that we can decode, so we don’t pick 99.9% of them up, but the ones that are closest to us sometimes sneak into our reality for a few moments, and on some levels can cause interference.

Atoms are mostly empty space.  Yet we perceive things as solid.  But nothing is solid, everything we see is a hologram, and we only see and hear, and feel the frequencies we can pick up in our frequency band.  That is why people report seeing UFOs “appear” out of nowhere, and then “disappear.”  In fact, what is happening is the UFOs are entering our frequency band for a short period of time for one reason or another, and then quickly moving out of our spectrum of visible light.

Everything in this universe is wave form, and each wave carries information, and we decode this information using our bodies, which I’ll refer to as a biological computer.  Our five senses pick up the waves in our frequency band and formulate what we see, hear, taste, smell, and feel.  Some humans have a better ability than others to sense more wave forms, but all in all, humans are in a tiny band of frequencies that are but an infinitesimal fraction of what is actually in the space in which we are occupying.  A good example of this are all the radio and television stations that are passing through you right now, and yet you cannot see or hear them, simply due to the fact that your body/mind computer is not set up to decode them, but your television/radio is.  That is how seemingly invisible waves can become pictures and sounds.  You just have to have the right medium to decode it.

A hologram is basically a wave that you shine two lasers at, and it creates a 3-Dimensional picture.  That picture appears to be solid and 3-D to the human eye, but in fact it is not solid or even really there.  It is but a projection, and the universe is a projection for all five senses.  What the true nature of reality is is still up for debate, but every time I really delve deep into this subject, I get that pure consciousness is our true selves.  Infinite and eternal consciousness is who we truly are.  What we are seeing outside of ourselves is like watching a movie that comes from within.  We are an ocean of consciousness, and we are all one consciousness having individual experiences.  There is no such thing as death, and you could look at life as a dream if that helps you understand.

When you dream, everything that takes place is happening in your mind.  It seems real at the time, and all the things you feel, see, hear, etc., are totally real while in the dream state.  It is only when you wake up (or become lucid) that you truly realize that whatever took place in your dream was indeed all illusion created by your mind/consciousness.  David Icke wrote a book called Infinite Love is the Only Truth, Everything Else is Illusion.  And what he meant to say is that who we really are is consciousness, pure undiluted love energy, and everything else is a hologram/illusion.  Everything physical is a projection of consciousness.  And we are slowly awakening to this conscious awareness of our true nature.  It may take a few more decades, but the suppression will end and we will know who we truly are.

So, why don’t we know about the holographic universe and our true nature already?  The answer is complex, and very so-called “out there,” but I’ll do my best to explain it in the best way I can.  At some point in the ancient world, we did live as though we were in this world, but not of it.  We knew of our connection to “God,” or consciousness, or the great spirit…whatever you want to call it.  We knew we were all one, until one day we were hijacked by what can only be described as inter-dimensional beings who were very technologically advanced (but not so much spiritually).  And what they did was bring the moon (which is most likely a hollowed-out planetoid) to Earth (Think of it like a Death Star…perfect analogy).  And what it did was cause mass cataclysms on Earth, and many ancient cultures describe the “Earth turned over.”  Because of the moon’s gravitational pull on Earth, it caused the Earth to tilt in the way that it does, and also caused many natural disasters that basically “wiped the slate clean” for these entities.

This is when the interbreeding started.  After everything had settled down to a point, these entities came down to Earth and interbred with humanity.  There are ancient accounts of this all over the world, and even in the Bible.  The Bible calls them “fallen angels,” and other ancient societies have other names for them.  What the main goal of these entities was and still is was the enslavement of humanity so that these entities could parasite off of our negative energy states.  Energy vampirism.  These hybrid bloodlines quickly assumed the power positions and killed off all the ancient knowledge by milking the shamans and storytellers of all the ancient nations and then killing them, ensuring only they had the knowledge of the illusory nature of reality, and they now use it against us to keep us in control.   These hybrid blood lines claimed they had the “divine right to rule,” due to the fact they had a bloodline related to the “Gods,” who were really the Reptillians or other inter-dimensional aliens.  This explains why the Royal families throughout history were obsessed with keeping their bloodlines “pure,” with excessive interbreeding which also caused some problems as well.

These hybrid bloodlines have a stronger connection to the Reptillians, who are broadcasting some kind of signal from the moon.  They are more easily possessed by these entities, and have rituals and sacrifices on certain meridian points throughout the world.  One that is pretty famous is Bohemian Grove, California.  They are Satanists, what who they are really worshiping are these entities who are very close to our frequency, which allows them to come into existence for short periods of time, and to certainly control the hybrid bloodlines through vibrational energy.  That is why the world is the way it is today.  But we’re starting to wake up.

David Icke talks about the truth vibrations, which he has been for over 20 years.  That everything that has been hidden will come to light, and the control system will fall.  And once again, we will regain that suppressed knowledge that has kept us in bondage and slavery without even knowing it.  We will once again realize that we are infinite consciousness, infinite possibility, and pure love energy and that nothing can harm us on a fundamental level, because we are all that has been, is, and ever was.  And now that the control system is in its death throws, it’s going to throw everything and the kitchen sink at us to try and suppress us more and more, much like a cornered rat trying to maintain its dominance, but at that point the truth vibrations will awaken more and more people, and there will be no stopping us from finally putting an end to the bondage we’ve been stuck in for thousands of years.

It will happen in our lifetimes, but before it does, the control system will seem to be getting stronger, but that is but an act of desperation.  Their last ace in the hole is the microchip, but most people will not go for such nonsense, and they are going to try to use it to suppress the truth vibrations on an energetic level.  So, if you refuse one thing, let it be the microchip, no matter what.  That is the “jewel in their crown,” as David Icke points out.  Either way, when we “die,” which there isn’t anything truly of it, death being the illusion that it is, we will once again become infinite consciousness, so there really is no need to fear anything, not even death.  And fear is the energy these entities feed off of.  Without this fear energy, they have no sustenance and will have no way to keep surviving.

There is nothing to fear except fear itself.  The world is an illusion, a hologram, and we are infinite consciousness having an experience.  There is no such thing as death, life is a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves.  Until next time, I’m infinite possibility…;)

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Steve Pavlina’s Passive Income Series

Steve Pavlina has been writing an entire series on passive income lately, and although he hasn’t exactly got to the how-to aspects yet, his posts are pretty enlightening on this subject.  First, he is trying to weed out the pretenders, the people who are considered self-help junkies, those who consume vigorous amounts of material, but never do anything meaningful with it.  I am truly enjoying the posts he’s written so far, and it has helped me really see the mindset of someone who earns passive income, rather than active income.  The series starts here.  So far, there’s been around 8 or so posts on the ideas of passive income, and these will help you build a foundation to figure out if you are the kind of person who wants to earn passive income.  I’ll definitely be following along myself, and even attempting some of the passive income streams on this website if I can figure out how to implement them.

This blog has had its successes when it comes to traffic, but it has also had its lulls in traffic.  It is partially my fault for not shamelessly marketing myself constantly.  I’m sure if I got my blog in the hands of more people, it would pick up steam.  I could make a million excuses for why I haven’t marketed myself as much as I could, but the truth of  is that having a blog is easy, but running a business is hard work, and it requires a ton of work that I don’t even know about.  There’s a lot of behind-the-scenes work that goes on that is barely noticeable to anyone who doesn’t run a business.  That, and the fact that I’m not the most apt when it comes to HTML and other programming languages.  I’ve thought about joining SBI!, but I’ve gone through their tutorials, and I don’t think I’ll be able to create a website based on some niche topic that I would easily get bored with quickly.  The best ideas I have for a website involve the concepts of comedy, subjective reality, and personal development.  I could create a website that encompasses all three of those things, but I don’t want to be limited by those things.

My writing is very stream of consciousness, and it has to do with whatever is on my mind at that particular time.  Sometimes I’ll just start writing with a blank slate and see what comes to mind.  One example of this is the post Prison Reform.  I had no idea I was going to write about how horrible prisons are and how that system isn’t working until I took a look at what my biggest fears are.  And that’s when I realized that my biggest fear is going to prison.  Above all else.  And it’s fucked up that prisons are filled with violence and rape, among other things, where you are stripped of all your individual rights and pretty much a slave.  And  most of those people are not beyond redemption.  Most of those people can change for the better, if they change their environment and the people who surround them.  Most people in prison were born into that way of life, living in places where there are no jobs, no way to escape the turmoil of a life below the poverty line.  But those in power try to keep those people down, in order to maintain power over.  What those in power fear the most is a truly equal society.

Like I said, I have so many ideas floating around in my head, and so many statements to make about the culture we live in that all I really need to do is find a way to put it all under one umbrella and then I could start a website that actually makes sense from a passive income standpoint.  If I could earn a couple thousand dollars a month from this website, or another, then I could really start to save some real money and get myself financially abundant.  I just need help in achieving that goal.  I need to learn from others’ mistakes and my own mistakes as well.  It’s all about creating a brand that is uniquely me.  I’ve seen it done on numerous websites and blogs.  The woman who used to write on Violent Acres turned her abusive childhood and unique sense of humor into a very popular and profitable site.  Steve Pavlina created a website based on his hobby of personal growth.  Leo Babauta created a wonderful site called Zen Habits simply by writing about his passion of simplicity and fulfillment.  He’s made enough money so that he doesn’t have to work anymore, except on his blog and whatever ebooks he wishes to create.  There are a wide variety of ways to create an income-generating website, and I just have to figure out the formula and learn all the hidden tricks for high web traffic and I’ll be golden.

I love to write about a variety of topics, and my small audience seems to appreciate it as well.  I write for myself as much as I write for anyone else, as it allows me to create something that otherwise would not exist.  I’m at least throwing myself out there to an extent.  But I know deep down that if I am to earn any kind of living from this kind of work, I need to figure out a way to build traffic and monetize this website to the point where I’m making enough to cover all my expenses and then some.  Sure, it will be a lot of work up front, but once I have the traffic rolling in, I’ll be pretty much on autopilot.

Anyway, check out Steve Pavlina’s Passive Income Series and see if you also would like to create some passive income in one way or another.  It certainly beats active income, where you only get paid while you are working.  It could be the best thing you’ve ever done for yourself, and the downside is pretty limited.  The upside is almost unlimited, so where is the risk really?  If it doesn’t work out, it’s not like you’ve risked anything but a little of your time.  Until next time…

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Zen Minimalism

I’ve been in a Zen Minimalist mood lately.  What I want to do is remove all things from my life that don’t contribute to my happiness.  I want to remove all possessions that no longer serve me.  It is an iterative process, taking many years to complete, but it is worth it because it becomes much easier to organize less stuff.  The truth is that your possessions should reflect who you are.  If something you own no longer resonates with you, then you should dump it either by trashing it or giving it away.  I’ve been holding onto some things that are no longer of use to me, and if I were to move, they would not come with me, so why not trash them now?  Or give them away or even attempt to sell them?  There’s no shame in selling that which you no longer need.  Trust me, someone else may need it.

I honestly would have to say that I haven’t made any major purchases in the past few years.  I’ve been the very picture of frugality.  I’ve managed to save a ton of money simply by working 40 hours a week and controlling my spending to the things I want and need, but no more.  Luckily, I don’t have expensive tastes.  :)  And if there is one thing I’ll splurge on, it is high quality foods.  You can’t go wrong buying organic baby spinach.  Or bulk frozen berries.  The truth is that the less you need to be happy, the easier it is for you to be happy.  If you can be happy with nothing or close to it, then you have less need to buy, buy, buy.  Spending money you do or don’t have on things you don’t need or even want is foolish.  But “need” is a relative term here, isn’t it?

What one person “needs” differs from someone else.  Some people think they “need” a mansion and servants, while others simply need healthy foods and a comfortable place to live and they are happy.  Whatever keeps you happy and fulfilled will differ, but cutting out that which does not make you happy or fulfilled is the essence of minimalism.  You can be a millionaire minimalist, or a homeless minimalist.  It is a matter of mindset and philosophy, not income bracket.  Although I would probably think the homeless minimalist would at least like a place for shelter…

Some people fall into minimalism not by choice, but by circumstances.  They cannot afford the things they want, so they pretend that they are minimalists because they don’t have the things that everyone else has.  That is a breed of false minimalism that is really self-delusion.  Eventually, people begin to see right through this and label these people as simply out of alignment with the principles of minimalism.  It’s all about being happy with what you have, not coveting what you do not have.  It is knowing that having more of possessions that most likely will not fulfill you will not add anything meaningful to your life.  It will probably stress you out more than if you did not have them in the first place.

I’ve already written over 500 words in this post, and I’m starting to feel like too many words describing minimalism is not really minimalist, now is it?  Simply put, minimalism is being happy with less, and being fulfilled because what you do have expresses who you truly are.

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Life is an Illusion, So is Death

Life and death are illusions.  The whole world is an illusion, a hologram.  The only truth is infinite love.  Everything else is illusion.  Consciousness is that eternal love.  So is “God.”  It is all one and the same.  This division we see is just another way to control us.  We are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively.  Life is a dream and there is no such thing as death.  We are the imagination of ourselves, people.  There is nothing to fear, and everything to love.  The only thing to truly fear is fear itself.  Fear is the mind killer.  But it is just an illusion, like everything that is not love.

There was a time, before we forgot where we came from, when we were in this world, but not of it.  We still are, but we knew it back then.  And this forgetting that no matter what happens, the core essence of our being will be okay, that is what has caused all the mayhem in this world today.  We are manipulated purposely to see ourselves are separate from others, when nothing could be further from the truth.  We all are one, we are the same, and that same is consciousness.  And that consciousness exudes pure love upon everything it touches.  It really is that simple.  And it can never be destroyed.  Life and death are more experiences happening through consciousness, but they are not really real.  It is simply a mental construct, a dream, a figment, a hologram.  So don’t take life/death too seriously, or you’ll never understand fully what this experience is about.

Until next time…

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