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Humans: Pathology at its Best

Monday, March 1st, 2010

The human race as a collective is very sick. We are damaged goods, broken. In today’s civilization, it is impossible not to be broken because all we see around us is hordes of death, destruction, murder, robbery, genocide, disease, overpopulation, etc. Our culture has turned us into a bunch of living, walking, breathing zombies that care more about how they can get ahead than how we can all work together. It is a natural reaction to the kind of world we live in today. We feel that we always have to be better than other people because we will see more opportunities and have a better life. An endless path of progress until our ultimate demise. This type of thinking is flawed. It is exactly the type of thinking that brought us such great innovations such as the Holocaust and genocide of the Native Americans.

We are so far out of balance and our consciousness shows that.  We continue to destroy our natural habitat in favor of sterile monuments and monumental buildings that represent little more than corporate dominance.  We are slaves to this accident called civilization.  It may not be accurate to call it an accident, because we knew damn well what we were doing and what we are doing now.  The problem was that we became addicted to the power.  When we finally mastered agriculture and the domestication of animals, we became more numerous and were able to gobble up more land for our consumption.  And as this spiraled out of control, our numbers grew larger and larger and central authority was established because once we reach a large enough number of people, there has to be someone in charge, no matter who they are or what their motives are.

And so it goes.  We initially developed agriculture as a survival mechanism to help us through one of the ice ages or other trauma that happened some 30,000 years ago.  We had to adapt and because we had developed such large brains from either eating tons of meat or other factors, we were able to take control of our food supply, which seemed perfectly rational at the time.  It was either make some food or go extinct.  So it is our own superior intelligence and mental adaptability that will ultimately be our demise.  I don’t blame the early homo sapiens for doing what they thought was necessary because had I been in their shoes, I would have done the same thing.  I don’t think they ever thought what would become of our world thousands of years down the road.  They were just doing what they had to.

Let us not forget about the Industrial Revolution that created orders of magnitude more people than grain agriculture.  Let us not shy away from all our medical advances that allow many people to live that would have otherwise been selected out due to living a natural life.  We just keep extending our power beyond our empathy until it is too late.  Where is this civilization going anyway?  Do we really want a world with 15 billion people and over 1 billion Americans?  Is that what we want?  People living in pods designed by GE and eating Monsanto GMO crops?  Because that is the only way we are ever going to feed and house a population of over-consuming, overpopulated humans who just don’t know when to stop.

Thankfully, our civilization should crash well before that nightmarish scenario ever happens.  But people are working to make all our unsustainable technologies more sustainable, which is a nightmare if you ask me.  Do we really want a police state sustainable?  Or a one-world-government?  Do we really want 1984?  Is that what we are shooting for?  A high-tech security state where every move we make is documented and even our private thoughts are being read by government officials?  Because that is where we are headed if we keep up this civilization.  I just pray that we crash fast and hard in the next century and never recover to the point we are at now.

We can gobble up all the natural resources and all the land, but then what?  What is the means to this end?  When there is no more power to be taken, what will those in power do?  When humans have control over every living being, will we expand into the universe and start making all universal life our slaves?  Technophiles are the ones who dream this kind of stuff up.  And they are the ones who are making many of the decisions.  They say that there is always a solution to maintain the status quo and to keep moving in the same direction infinitely, but that is not the case.  It is only a matter of time before we run out of the very fuel that is powering us.  It took millions of years for all the fuel we are using to form.  And in a couple of centuries, we have depleted nearly all of it.  Does that seem very logical and rational to you?

So what are we supposed to do about all this?  I would argue there is nothing we can do on a small scale that would make any significant difference.  The only suggestion I have is to learn how to be self-sufficient and how to live without some of the manufactured necessities we now are blessed to have.  The electricity will come off.  The water will stop running.  There will be catastrophic crop failures.  It’s just a matter of when.  And it is a matter of knowing how to get by on much, much less than we have been.

And it is also shedding this notion that we are entitled to everything this Earth has to offer.  Not to mention taking what the Earth gives us and not forcefully creating our food and shelters in such a way that we destroy the majority of all other life around us.  It is getting rid of all these unnecessary laws and regulations that are just used to control us when what we truly are are wild animals.  And until we embrace our wildness and get back to nature, we will see how we used to live just by watching the animals and how they live.  We will regain more and more of our primal selves and start to realize that the way we live now is totally insane and the way every other creature on this planet lives makes perfect, logical sense

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Laws Gone Wild

Friday, February 19th, 2010

I was doing some research on different laws after reading about government and corporate oppression and came to a stunning conclusion:  I have never participated in making a law.  Every law on the face of the Earth was created without my input or consent.  Whether or not I agree with the law doesn’t matter.  It simply exists because someone else thought it was a good idea.  But we have to follow all the laws or risk being thrown in jail.  But we didn’t have a say in creating these laws, so why should we be compelled to follow them?

There used to be laws saying a black person could not marry a white person.  This was in the last half-century.  Was the law just?  No way.  But did everyone still have to follow it?  You bet.  Martin Luther King said something like to resist and unjust law is doing your patriotic duty, but it comes at great cost.  MLK was thrown in jail many times for resisting the racist laws of his time.  It took a whole Civil Rights Movement just to get blacks and whites on equal terms with each other.  That is just one example of laws gone wild.

I believe we should take our own initiative when it comes to laws.  If we do not agree with a certain law, then we don’t follow it.  If a law is unjust, then following it is  only perpetuating the wrongfulness of the law.  We know the difference between right and wrong and there are hundreds, possibly thousands of laws that just don’t make sense or are there purposely to oppress those who are not rich, white, powerful, or straight.  People being thrown in jail for possessing the plant marijuana.  Two people unable to marry because they are of the same sex.  People sit in jail accused of a crime they didn’t commit because they cannot afford the bail.  Most times, they are forced to plead guilty to a lesser charge just to get out of jail.  People who are in possession of hard drugs are thrown in jail for years when in reality what they need is drug rehab.

People always act as if everyone who breaks the law should be thrown in jail, no matter how silly the law is.  But does jail or prison really help these minor offenders who simply had some drugs on them or were simply the wrong color and matched some general description?  Jail does not rehabilitate.  Minor offenders go into jail and come out worse criminals than they went in as.  All kinds of abuse take place in jail.  People are psychologically and physically scarred there.  It is not a place that facilitates growth and renewal towards a better future.  Look at how many people spend recurrent terms in jail/prison.  Is it really the best place to put most of these people?  Isn’t there a better way?

Now I’m not saying murderers and rapists don’t deserve to be put in jail.  I’m not saying con artists and thieves don’t belong in jail.  I’m just saying that this police state world has made everything imaginable a crime to create a prison population that is so overcrowded and full of minor offenders that it seems like a complete waste of resources.  There doesn’t have to be a war on drugs or a war on parking tickets.  We need to think awfully hard about the people we are sending away to the same place where murderers and rapists also inhabit.  Jail wouldn’t be so bad if it wasn’t for all the violence.  It’s just a place where they lump all the criminals into one big section and call it even.  Is it fair that a shoplifter has to share a cell with a serial killer?

What I’m getting at here is the justice system needs to be revamped.  We need to distinguish between real crimes and fabricated ones.  Let people live their lives, as long as they are not being violent.  The government should not be spying on everyone so closely.  You don’t see any other species in the world that have laws and prisons.  The only laws they have are the laws of nature.  They are born free and only have their freedom taken away if us humans get involved (such as factory farming and fir trapping).

We are born free and then most of our freedoms are taken away and every year we lose a little more.  We have lost 99% of our privacy.  We can’t just live anymore because we have to adhere to millions of laws and regulations that just constrict us more and more because the ruling class’s only method is to keep tightening their grip on the rest of the world.  It’s easier to squeeze tighter than it is to let go.  But who says they have the right to tell us how to live?  Who gave them that right?  Aren’t they the descendants of people who killed millions of Native Americans and stole all their land?  I guess there is no justice on stolen land after all.  Whoever has benefited from the mass extermination of the Native Americans should be put in prison for genocide.  But those kind of laws only apply to those who are not in the ruling class.

Dick Cheney can shoot his friend in the face while quail hunting and get away with it.  Imagine if a black kid did the same thing.  He’d be looking at 25 to life.  Not only are the laws silly, they are also unfair.  Those who have money can afford a better defense if they are accused.  They also can afford bail.  And you wonder why the poor make up a very large percentage of the prison population.  They weren’t born with a sliver enema up their ass that allows them to work the justice system to their advantage.  But so it goes.

I don’t know if there will ever be a time where all humans are seen as equals.  Sure, we’re not all equal, but under the law we certainly should be.  There should be no special treatment for those who can simply buy the verdict they want.  And certain ethnic groups should not be targeted in a discriminatory way just because statistics show that they are less likely to be able to afford a good defense attorney and end up having to spend time in jail.  Not only that, but the fact that even now there are laws specifically in place to oppress those who have nothing and to build up those that have everything.  It is a ridiculous paradigm, but will things ever change for the better?

It is up to us as a species to answer this question.

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Insomnia

Tuesday, May 5th, 2009

The reason I haven’t been posting on this blog lately is because I haven’t been getting any sleep lately.  Last night, I dozed off around 12:30 and woke up 20 minutes or so later.  Then I didn’t fall asleep until well after 3 AM.  Then I wake up at 9 AM.  It wasn’t a deep sleep.  I tried going back to sleep, but I just couldn’t.  Even if I take a sleep aid, my sleep is still very short and light.  I did have some coffee last night and that explains last night, but why would I wake up so early after falling asleep?  Six hours has never been enough sleep for me.  I just don’t understand it.  I’ve been waking up really early lately after going to bed after 1 AM and having trouble going back to sleep.  The only thing I’ve been doing differently is drinking the smoothies every day.  This newfound feeling is very strange and is killing my sleep.  It could be the heat that’s killing my sleep.

I’ve been waking up in sweats a lot and unable to get comfortable in my bed due to the heat.  I’m going to try some new things and see how they work out.

It’s so weird to want to go to sleep and not be able to.  It’s like your body is rejecting your mind.   I haven’t been having any dreams, which is why I know that my sleep is not very deep.  Usually when I am sleeping well, I have dreams that I remember.  I’ve been having what I can only describe as hot flashes lately as well.  Perhaps it is due to the detox my body is going through because of the smoothies.  Been having headaches almost all day every day.  Didn’t have any last night, though.  But then I had insomnia.

Haven’t had much feeling lately.  Most of the day.  Kind of an empty feeling.   It’s weird.  Nothing really excites me anymore.  I never feel fully awake, nor do I feel fully asleep.  It’s just this constant fog that never gets lifted.  I don’t really identify with my body anymore.  It is merely a shell.  A shell that contains the real me, the timeless me.  My body is simply a manifestation of consciousness and my consciousness is the only infinite.

The world is nothing more than mere illusion.  I feel this way now, but I’ve felt differently in the past.  It is something put here to help us build our consciousness.  At least that’s what I’m led to believe.  But who really knows?  Why are we here and what is the meaning of this existence?  It certainly isn’t to build malls and parking garages.  Sometimes I feel like the world and the Earth has no purpose and is just here by random chance and then I think it is merely an illusion.  It is a product of our consciousness.  But why?  What does it all mean in the end?

This is just so strange.  This whole reality we live in.  Making sense of it is an exercise in futility and I’d just be wasting my time.  How can I figure something out that no one has ever truly known before?  There are so many answers to the “meaning of life” question that it all just gets muddled into one big pile of uncertainty.  This is why I can’t identify with any of the wide range of answers.  I could say the meaning of life is what you make it, but that’s truly a cop-out answer.  The whole meaning is in your mind and your mind alone.  There are just so many choices to make in this world and the more there are, the more paralyzed the people become.

The universe is laughing at us all right now because the human race has destroyed their home planet and for what?  Progress?  But what has that brought us?  More people are depressed than ever before.  We can travel the globe in less than 24 hours and yet more people go hungry every day percentage wise than 20,000 years ago.  Our population continues to spin out of control as we grow more and more food, only making the whole human problem worse.  It’s nobody’s fault.  But in another way, it’s all of our faults.

My mind is a mess right now and I’m just typing to get my mind moving.  I hope this entry wasn’t too disjointed and disorganized.  I’m just feeling really weird lately, so I suppose my entries will be weird.  Have a nice day.

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Feeling Low

Friday, April 17th, 2009

Lately, lately, lately, I don’t know what to say.  I’m looking for a new job and applying lots of places, but none of them are calling me back.  I’m just trying to build my savings back up and it seems like people are just ignoring me.  I must have applied to 40 places in the past 4 months and no one has even called me back yet.  Maybe they read my blog.  All my dreams and aspirations on this blog are becoming mere child’s play because this society is going to be around for awhile and as the population keeps exploding, the worse it’s going to get.  It seems rather hopeless to even go on in a world like this and really try to initiate change because there are so many forces working against me.  The whole structure of society forces everyone to act and obey as the establishment says it should.  This really bothers me to my very core and if there is no way to make money than to have a job right now, then what am I supposed to do when they don’t call back and every time I call them or visit them, they keep pushing me off to a later date?

I keep applying and applying and applying and all for naught.  I know I’ve said before that work is mostly unnecessary, but in our terrible pathological world, it’s the only way to keep living on this god-forsaken planet.  I haven’t received one donation for this blog and I’ve given so much, so why should I even ask for them anymore?  I hardly get any comments and I just feel like I should just quit everything and just stop blogging because obviously no one is even listening.  It’ really getting depressing lately.

I put so much effort into writing on this blog, and I’m putting some effort into getting a job, but neither are working out.  I could write some more babble about how if we all lived in balance with nature that jobs wouldn’t be necessary, but I feel like that’s never going to happen, so what am I to do?  I just get sick of it sometimes.  I feel like the whole world and God is conspiring against me, especially when it comes to my health.

I’ll feel good for a couple of days, and then the blinding headaches come back.  I’ll be doing well and think I can finally read again, and I strain my eyes so bad that they hurt for weeks.  I go out looking for jobs and I come back with a headache from excessive driving, which for me is less than an hour.  It’s not so bad when I don’t push myself, but if I have to go and do anything, it adds on the pain.

This has been going on to various degrees for seven years and I’ve been to numerous doctors, all of them with no answer.  I have some good days once in awhile, but I always know the pendulum is going to swing the other way.  I often get criticized for not putting in enough effort in certain areas of my life, but if the people criticizing me felt what I feel on a daily basis, they would promptly shut their mouths.

I’m not someone who usually complains because I don’t want a ton of people feeling bad for me or worrying about me.  I don’t like it when people are constantly assessing how I’m feeling because I really don’t want to think about it myself.  I’m trying my best and if that’s not good enough, too bad.  I’m sick and  I have days where it’s a miracle I even get out of bed, so don’t you sit there and judge me.

But enough about that.  I don’t want a pity party.  I’m just not fit for this world the way I feel, at least not right now.  And it makes me sad.  Because I always had so much potential.  I was always so smart.  But this cancer in my brain, it took something from me and I don’t know what it was, but it’s been haunting me for seven years.  The worst part about this is that hardly anybody understands or even makes an effort to try and understand.

And people wonder why I isolate myself.  It’s because every person I see that’s healthy and doing well is just another reminder that that’s not me.  That I’ll never feel that good.  It’s not easy living with this curse, and it’s been way too long.  I just want to get better.  That’s all I’ve ever wanted.  I just want a clear mind and a pain-free life.  I want my zest for life back from where it was taken.  That’s all.  Is that too much to ask?

Preserving Nature

Friday, April 10th, 2009

What I wish to do someday, when I have enough money, is to buy a piece of land and preserve it and let it go wild for the benefit of everytying that’s there.  I may build a little Unabomber shack there to live in intermittantly, but that will be it.  Just a few acres of undeveloped land that will be allowed to stay that way indefinitely so that I can at least do my part at actually saving the Earth.  Sure, in the long run, it won’t matter that much, it being such a small portion of the Earth, but it will be very important that I do it for myself and for the influence of others.  People will go miles to see a wild habitat, but very few people will travel miles to look at lawns because they’re everywhere.

I wish I could just go out and do this without buying land, but it is such a shame that all the good land is owned by people who just took it.  They didn’t pay for it when they first claimed it, but now they want to sell it to me?  It’s all profit.  Or if the agencies that sold it to me paid for it, they were scammed from somebody else who just claimed the land.  This goes to prove that most of our wealth is just an illusion built on theft and domination.  Why do you think we’re still spending money on the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan?  Because there’s free money in it for us in the form of oil and natural resources.  We truly are the bullies of the world here in America.  And it’s gotten worse.  They even gave the ex-slaves 40 acres and a mule.  When we’re born into this country, we’re given nothing.  The state barely even guarantees our survival.  Other countries in the world give every citizen a little piece of land to live on.  Not in America.  Because there’s not profit in giving away things for free, but there is profit in stealing things and calling it progress.

Back in the old days, you could just go to a piece of land and claim it and live on it.  Now, there’s hours of paperwork and thousands of dollars spent.  It just doesn’t seem fair.  Who profits from the selling of land, the selling of land that has existed since the beginning of the Earth?  It’s completely bogus.  How can someone own something like that?  It’s complete bull shit.  Look at what it’s done to the world.  Take a good look at what this country used to be.  A pristine landscape, full of life and diversity.  Now it’s the third mall from the sun.  If this doesn’t piss you off, you are too entrenched in the system and your mind crosses over into pathology.  Why do Americans think this country is so fucking great?

It’s the most pathologcial of them all, except Dubai, which I linked to yesterday.  If that country or city, or whatever it’s called in man-made language, is not pathological, I don’t know what is.  They pump in thousands of gallons of water a day just to keep the city going.  They use slave labor in the hot, hot deserts.  I almost cried when I read that article.   People from other countries being lied to about a great job in Dubai, only to have their passport stolen and denied wages, against the very laws of Dubai, but never, ever enforced.  These people who were enslaved, acting like helpless caged animals, without a will of resistance because they’re almost dead from heat exhaustion and dehydration.  That had to be the most shocking aspect of the whole city.  Then there’s the rich first worlders enjoying the whole city at the slave’s expense.  These people won’t even acknowledge the slaves because they’re too afraid to even look at them, because deep down they know their pleasure comes from those slaves’ pain.

Anyway, preserving your own piece of nature is one of the best things you can do because at least now you’re part of the solution.  I have a good mind to just go live somewhere  in nature, but then there’s no security because it could be destroyed at any minute for the so-called development of this country.  It truly is a shame that we’ve resorted to destroying the whole planet just to make a couple of bucks.  Are we ever going to realize the folly of our ways?  I say we because we’re all in this together and we’re all going to suffer in the end.   I fear that even owning land will not stop the ruling powers from taking it from us when we hit a crisis.  We are already in crisis, but when it gets worse, who knows that the rulers of this country and the world will do to expand their power while constricting ours.  It’s anyone’s guess, but martial law is one of them.  I’ve already heard that Obama or someone in his Cabinet threatened Congress with marital law if they didn’t pass even one of the stimulus packages.  What does that say about our government?

So, for the time being, getting a piece of nature, a piece of land that you own and can preserve is something that, as of now, the ruiling classes can’t just plow down for development.  It will be a nice post-crash shelter that you and your friends can enjoy and live on while the majority of the country goes homeless and hyperinflation takes effect.  That’s what the stimulus bill is going to do to our country.  But I’m no expert on the economy.  That’s why I link to sources that will tell you what the consequences are.  But economic knowledge will become increasingly obsolete as our money becomes more worthless and worthless and the ruling class and the Federal Reserve keep printing money.  That’s why I feel it is important to secure your piece of land sooner than later.  Before you know it, there will be no more land available that any average American can afford.  It’s sad, really, but what can we do?

We need a shift in consciousness, but I don’t see it happening until enough Americans are uncomfortable enough.  When one-third or even a quarter of our populatin becomes homeless, there will be a fucking revolution.  But who knows if the government will just massacre all of them in camps?  It’s been done before with the Native Americans and the Japanese Americans.  So what’s to stop them again?  Like I’ve said before, we have no rights.  They aren’t rights if they can be taken away like “that.”  And it will happen.  George W. Bush already shredded the Constitution, so what’s stopping the next crop of elites?  So, get on that land as soon as possible, even though it can very easily be taken away from you for no reason at all.  It’s the right thing to do.

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