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Who am I?

Wednesday, June 9th, 2010

I’m just wondering who I am.  I do this from time to time.  Who am I?  And why am I here now and in this place doing whatever it is I’m doing?  What is the greater purpose in being here?  And what is it we are here to do?  What is the nature of existence?  How did all of this come to be?  We are living, breathing, intelligent creatures living on a planet full of many other living, breathing, intelligent creatures.  We were spawned from billions of years of evolution, from one-celled organisms to giant elephants.  How did all of this happen?  How did life even begin?  What was the catalyst?  What was the first living thing?  And how did we make it this far?  By dumb luck?  By clearly calculated evolution?  I don’t know.  I wasn’t there.  And neither were you.

I’m just curious about the origin of the universe and even of our small, trivial planet.  How did it all start?  What spawned the universe?  You could say God did, but I find that to be a cop-out answer.  That is the last resort of a man with no answers.  I would just like to know how all these different things that have happened over the last trillions of years led up to me typing on a computer in the middle of the night.  How did the universe end up so perfect, with billions of suns, and planets surrounding them?  How did the suns get so damn hot?  What caused them to heat up like that?  And how did our planet get lucky enough to be just far away from the sun to have life?  I’m sure it’s quite an amazing tale, but there is nobody to tell it because nobody was there.

I feel really expansive here.  I feel like all the questions I’m asking are for naught.  But I do feel I need to ask them.  And don’t just say the Big Bang either.  That makes absolutely no sense because what caused the Big Bang?  An explosion like that can’t come out of nothing.  I bet some scientist made up the Big Bang theory as a joke and everyone thought he was serious.  So they went with it.  There had to have been an origin of everything that exists today all across the universe, but you can’t make something from nothing.  It’s very amusing to try and imagine what might have happened, but it is almost inconceivable to come up with a satisfactory answer.  You could say anything you want about how the universe was formed, but whatever formed it had to come from something, and that had to come from something, and so on and so forth, so the only answer that is possible is that the universe has always been and always will be. Perhaps it has been expanding and contracting forever.  But how?  I don’t know.  I wasn’t there.  And neither were you. :)

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A Collapse is For the Best

Thursday, April 8th, 2010

I’ve been wanting to write another blog post for awhile, but I just haven’t been inspired to do so.  There was nothing that I truly wanted to post here that I thought would be of true value.  I guess that comes with working nights because my days get all messed up.  I’ve had less quiet time to write posts and when I do have time to write something, I just simply don’t feel like it.  I just know that there is something seriously wrong in our world and while I currently lack the power to fix it, I can inspire others to create positive changes to the world as a whole.

Many people are ignorant of our collapsing civilization.  Many people are in serious denial.  The people who do see the collapse and are aware of the consequences see it as an overwhelming task to fix, so they become hopeless and depressed.  We have used up almost all the world’s resources in just a couple of centuries.  But we’ve been stealing from the Earth for at least 50,000 years.

Grain agriculture was a response to an ice age or something similar that left our species short on food.  We had to think fast, so we started taking control of our food supply by domesticating animals and growing our own monoculture crops.  This in turn led to a larger and larger population to the point where we now have around 7 billion humans inhabiting this planet.  We keep stealing from the land and calling it progress.  We destroy entire habitats just to house all these people or build a Walmart, the shopping center of civilization.

Most people will not change until it is too late.  Most people are not ready for change.  Most people need to be forced into change.  Well, now that fossil fuels are dwindling at a rate we’ve never seen before, things are most certainly going to change.  The cheap, abundant energy we were so used to in the past will become an expensive scarcity.  We will fall down a couple of pegs.  There will certainly be less cars on the road and less heating and air-conditioning of homes.  Some of the manufactured necessities we are so accustomed to now will be gone.

There is no savior for this problem.  Solar energy is a crutch at best and will have nowhere near the exergy we need to power vehicles or even power entire homes on a massive scale.  That energy from the sun is not concentrated enough.  It is spread out for 93 million miles before it gets to our planet.  That makes it energy-lite, something that may be able to be used for light energy tasks, such as heating up water.  Wind power will fail for the very reason that it costs so much energy just to create these windmills and the return will be nowhere worth the investment.  The same will soon be true of oil and fossil fuels as well.  It will soon cost more in energy to extract these resources that it will be a futile attempt to even drill for them.  Coal is yet another resource that is either going to pollute us to death or run out as well.  Just in case you didn’t know, coal is what most electricity is created with.

Our energy systems are vastly inefficient, with over 75 percent of the energy created going to waste through heat and transport.  We could afford this inefficiency when we had cheap, abundant oil.  But now we no longer have that luxury due to spectacular incompetence and a pathological need for infinite growth instead of simple balance.  All this behavior was created by the agricultural system.  We used to live in balance.  We definitely did.  We kept our populations at a very sustainable rate and ate what the land gave us and nothing more.  Agriculture may have saved our lives as a species, but it has caused way more trouble than it was worth.

Just imagine what the world would have looked like today without any civilized humans.  I’m sure it would look similar to the way it looked before we ever came along.  Diverse, full of life, free of toxins.  An interesting and wonderful life for all the species present.  No one species trying to control or exterminate the rest.  A nice life.  A simple life.  A world where everything balances out and there is never a thought of scarcity.

It’s a shame we got out of balance, but I do hope the collapse brings us back into balance for good.  That or we go extinct because we obviously cannot handle our own intelligence and have used it to rape and pillage the Earth and every living creature on it, including ourselves.  We are not good stewards of the Earth and we should have never gained all this control over it.  But since we have, we need to find a way to get back to the way it was.  But with our robber-baron consciousness we inherit from an early age in a world of fierce zero-sum competition, how could we ever trust that the whole world would go along with getting back into balance?  So it will certainly take a complete collapse for there even to be a chance of any balance.  And that makes collapse one of the best things that could happen to us.

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Humans: Pathology at its Best

Monday, March 1st, 2010

The human race as a collective is very sick. We are damaged goods, broken. In today’s civilization, it is impossible not to be broken because all we see around us is hordes of death, destruction, murder, robbery, genocide, disease, overpopulation, etc. Our culture has turned us into a bunch of living, walking, breathing zombies that care more about how they can get ahead than how we can all work together. It is a natural reaction to the kind of world we live in today. We feel that we always have to be better than other people because we will see more opportunities and have a better life. An endless path of progress until our ultimate demise. This type of thinking is flawed. It is exactly the type of thinking that brought us such great innovations such as the Holocaust and genocide of the Native Americans.

We are so far out of balance and our consciousness shows that.  We continue to destroy our natural habitat in favor of sterile monuments and monumental buildings that represent little more than corporate dominance.  We are slaves to this accident called civilization.  It may not be accurate to call it an accident, because we knew damn well what we were doing and what we are doing now.  The problem was that we became addicted to the power.  When we finally mastered agriculture and the domestication of animals, we became more numerous and were able to gobble up more land for our consumption.  And as this spiraled out of control, our numbers grew larger and larger and central authority was established because once we reach a large enough number of people, there has to be someone in charge, no matter who they are or what their motives are.

And so it goes.  We initially developed agriculture as a survival mechanism to help us through one of the ice ages or other trauma that happened some 30,000 years ago.  We had to adapt and because we had developed such large brains from either eating tons of meat or other factors, we were able to take control of our food supply, which seemed perfectly rational at the time.  It was either make some food or go extinct.  So it is our own superior intelligence and mental adaptability that will ultimately be our demise.  I don’t blame the early homo sapiens for doing what they thought was necessary because had I been in their shoes, I would have done the same thing.  I don’t think they ever thought what would become of our world thousands of years down the road.  They were just doing what they had to.

Let us not forget about the Industrial Revolution that created orders of magnitude more people than grain agriculture.  Let us not shy away from all our medical advances that allow many people to live that would have otherwise been selected out due to living a natural life.  We just keep extending our power beyond our empathy until it is too late.  Where is this civilization going anyway?  Do we really want a world with 15 billion people and over 1 billion Americans?  Is that what we want?  People living in pods designed by GE and eating Monsanto GMO crops?  Because that is the only way we are ever going to feed and house a population of over-consuming, overpopulated humans who just don’t know when to stop.

Thankfully, our civilization should crash well before that nightmarish scenario ever happens.  But people are working to make all our unsustainable technologies more sustainable, which is a nightmare if you ask me.  Do we really want a police state sustainable?  Or a one-world-government?  Do we really want 1984?  Is that what we are shooting for?  A high-tech security state where every move we make is documented and even our private thoughts are being read by government officials?  Because that is where we are headed if we keep up this civilization.  I just pray that we crash fast and hard in the next century and never recover to the point we are at now.

We can gobble up all the natural resources and all the land, but then what?  What is the means to this end?  When there is no more power to be taken, what will those in power do?  When humans have control over every living being, will we expand into the universe and start making all universal life our slaves?  Technophiles are the ones who dream this kind of stuff up.  And they are the ones who are making many of the decisions.  They say that there is always a solution to maintain the status quo and to keep moving in the same direction infinitely, but that is not the case.  It is only a matter of time before we run out of the very fuel that is powering us.  It took millions of years for all the fuel we are using to form.  And in a couple of centuries, we have depleted nearly all of it.  Does that seem very logical and rational to you?

So what are we supposed to do about all this?  I would argue there is nothing we can do on a small scale that would make any significant difference.  The only suggestion I have is to learn how to be self-sufficient and how to live without some of the manufactured necessities we now are blessed to have.  The electricity will come off.  The water will stop running.  There will be catastrophic crop failures.  It’s just a matter of when.  And it is a matter of knowing how to get by on much, much less than we have been.

And it is also shedding this notion that we are entitled to everything this Earth has to offer.  Not to mention taking what the Earth gives us and not forcefully creating our food and shelters in such a way that we destroy the majority of all other life around us.  It is getting rid of all these unnecessary laws and regulations that are just used to control us when what we truly are are wild animals.  And until we embrace our wildness and get back to nature, we will see how we used to live just by watching the animals and how they live.  We will regain more and more of our primal selves and start to realize that the way we live now is totally insane and the way every other creature on this planet lives makes perfect, logical sense

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Laws Gone Wild

Friday, February 19th, 2010

I was doing some research on different laws after reading about government and corporate oppression and came to a stunning conclusion:  I have never participated in making a law.  Every law on the face of the Earth was created without my input or consent.  Whether or not I agree with the law doesn’t matter.  It simply exists because someone else thought it was a good idea.  But we have to follow all the laws or risk being thrown in jail.  But we didn’t have a say in creating these laws, so why should we be compelled to follow them?

There used to be laws saying a black person could not marry a white person.  This was in the last half-century.  Was the law just?  No way.  But did everyone still have to follow it?  You bet.  Martin Luther King said something like to resist and unjust law is doing your patriotic duty, but it comes at great cost.  MLK was thrown in jail many times for resisting the racist laws of his time.  It took a whole Civil Rights Movement just to get blacks and whites on equal terms with each other.  That is just one example of laws gone wild.

I believe we should take our own initiative when it comes to laws.  If we do not agree with a certain law, then we don’t follow it.  If a law is unjust, then following it is  only perpetuating the wrongfulness of the law.  We know the difference between right and wrong and there are hundreds, possibly thousands of laws that just don’t make sense or are there purposely to oppress those who are not rich, white, powerful, or straight.  People being thrown in jail for possessing the plant marijuana.  Two people unable to marry because they are of the same sex.  People sit in jail accused of a crime they didn’t commit because they cannot afford the bail.  Most times, they are forced to plead guilty to a lesser charge just to get out of jail.  People who are in possession of hard drugs are thrown in jail for years when in reality what they need is drug rehab.

People always act as if everyone who breaks the law should be thrown in jail, no matter how silly the law is.  But does jail or prison really help these minor offenders who simply had some drugs on them or were simply the wrong color and matched some general description?  Jail does not rehabilitate.  Minor offenders go into jail and come out worse criminals than they went in as.  All kinds of abuse take place in jail.  People are psychologically and physically scarred there.  It is not a place that facilitates growth and renewal towards a better future.  Look at how many people spend recurrent terms in jail/prison.  Is it really the best place to put most of these people?  Isn’t there a better way?

Now I’m not saying murderers and rapists don’t deserve to be put in jail.  I’m not saying con artists and thieves don’t belong in jail.  I’m just saying that this police state world has made everything imaginable a crime to create a prison population that is so overcrowded and full of minor offenders that it seems like a complete waste of resources.  There doesn’t have to be a war on drugs or a war on parking tickets.  We need to think awfully hard about the people we are sending away to the same place where murderers and rapists also inhabit.  Jail wouldn’t be so bad if it wasn’t for all the violence.  It’s just a place where they lump all the criminals into one big section and call it even.  Is it fair that a shoplifter has to share a cell with a serial killer?

What I’m getting at here is the justice system needs to be revamped.  We need to distinguish between real crimes and fabricated ones.  Let people live their lives, as long as they are not being violent.  The government should not be spying on everyone so closely.  You don’t see any other species in the world that have laws and prisons.  The only laws they have are the laws of nature.  They are born free and only have their freedom taken away if us humans get involved (such as factory farming and fir trapping).

We are born free and then most of our freedoms are taken away and every year we lose a little more.  We have lost 99% of our privacy.  We can’t just live anymore because we have to adhere to millions of laws and regulations that just constrict us more and more because the ruling class’s only method is to keep tightening their grip on the rest of the world.  It’s easier to squeeze tighter than it is to let go.  But who says they have the right to tell us how to live?  Who gave them that right?  Aren’t they the descendants of people who killed millions of Native Americans and stole all their land?  I guess there is no justice on stolen land after all.  Whoever has benefited from the mass extermination of the Native Americans should be put in prison for genocide.  But those kind of laws only apply to those who are not in the ruling class.

Dick Cheney can shoot his friend in the face while quail hunting and get away with it.  Imagine if a black kid did the same thing.  He’d be looking at 25 to life.  Not only are the laws silly, they are also unfair.  Those who have money can afford a better defense if they are accused.  They also can afford bail.  And you wonder why the poor make up a very large percentage of the prison population.  They weren’t born with a sliver enema up their ass that allows them to work the justice system to their advantage.  But so it goes.

I don’t know if there will ever be a time where all humans are seen as equals.  Sure, we’re not all equal, but under the law we certainly should be.  There should be no special treatment for those who can simply buy the verdict they want.  And certain ethnic groups should not be targeted in a discriminatory way just because statistics show that they are less likely to be able to afford a good defense attorney and end up having to spend time in jail.  Not only that, but the fact that even now there are laws specifically in place to oppress those who have nothing and to build up those that have everything.  It is a ridiculous paradigm, but will things ever change for the better?

It is up to us as a species to answer this question.

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Insomnia

Tuesday, May 5th, 2009

The reason I haven’t been posting on this blog lately is because I haven’t been getting any sleep lately.  Last night, I dozed off around 12:30 and woke up 20 minutes or so later.  Then I didn’t fall asleep until well after 3 AM.  Then I wake up at 9 AM.  It wasn’t a deep sleep.  I tried going back to sleep, but I just couldn’t.  Even if I take a sleep aid, my sleep is still very short and light.  I did have some coffee last night and that explains last night, but why would I wake up so early after falling asleep?  Six hours has never been enough sleep for me.  I just don’t understand it.  I’ve been waking up really early lately after going to bed after 1 AM and having trouble going back to sleep.  The only thing I’ve been doing differently is drinking the smoothies every day.  This newfound feeling is very strange and is killing my sleep.  It could be the heat that’s killing my sleep.

I’ve been waking up in sweats a lot and unable to get comfortable in my bed due to the heat.  I’m going to try some new things and see how they work out.

It’s so weird to want to go to sleep and not be able to.  It’s like your body is rejecting your mind.   I haven’t been having any dreams, which is why I know that my sleep is not very deep.  Usually when I am sleeping well, I have dreams that I remember.  I’ve been having what I can only describe as hot flashes lately as well.  Perhaps it is due to the detox my body is going through because of the smoothies.  Been having headaches almost all day every day.  Didn’t have any last night, though.  But then I had insomnia.

Haven’t had much feeling lately.  Most of the day.  Kind of an empty feeling.   It’s weird.  Nothing really excites me anymore.  I never feel fully awake, nor do I feel fully asleep.  It’s just this constant fog that never gets lifted.  I don’t really identify with my body anymore.  It is merely a shell.  A shell that contains the real me, the timeless me.  My body is simply a manifestation of consciousness and my consciousness is the only infinite.

The world is nothing more than mere illusion.  I feel this way now, but I’ve felt differently in the past.  It is something put here to help us build our consciousness.  At least that’s what I’m led to believe.  But who really knows?  Why are we here and what is the meaning of this existence?  It certainly isn’t to build malls and parking garages.  Sometimes I feel like the world and the Earth has no purpose and is just here by random chance and then I think it is merely an illusion.  It is a product of our consciousness.  But why?  What does it all mean in the end?

This is just so strange.  This whole reality we live in.  Making sense of it is an exercise in futility and I’d just be wasting my time.  How can I figure something out that no one has ever truly known before?  There are so many answers to the “meaning of life” question that it all just gets muddled into one big pile of uncertainty.  This is why I can’t identify with any of the wide range of answers.  I could say the meaning of life is what you make it, but that’s truly a cop-out answer.  The whole meaning is in your mind and your mind alone.  There are just so many choices to make in this world and the more there are, the more paralyzed the people become.

The universe is laughing at us all right now because the human race has destroyed their home planet and for what?  Progress?  But what has that brought us?  More people are depressed than ever before.  We can travel the globe in less than 24 hours and yet more people go hungry every day percentage wise than 20,000 years ago.  Our population continues to spin out of control as we grow more and more food, only making the whole human problem worse.  It’s nobody’s fault.  But in another way, it’s all of our faults.

My mind is a mess right now and I’m just typing to get my mind moving.  I hope this entry wasn’t too disjointed and disorganized.  I’m just feeling really weird lately, so I suppose my entries will be weird.  Have a nice day.

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